I have been away from keyboard now since the first december. I've moved into a bigger and lighter and much more cool appartment in a neighbourhood that really isn't what the appartment feels like, the houses is red and gray and sometimes really boring, but some others a yellow and much more new and those I like to look at. The appartment is pretty close to the sea and from one of the windows I can se boats travelling at high speed leaving Sundsvall with cargo.
Here I live with Glenn now and we really like the place and the closeness to the town.
I am a bit behind schedule when it comes to my university studies so I've taken some time off line to read and catch up with things. I so want to get the studying over with soon and start a life as something other then student and become a happy tax-payer like everyone else with a real job. That thing will be a huge step for me.
So in the time that have passed since I went offline I've done two exams now. One in Human geography which went really great just 6.5 points from entering 75 p out of 100 which would have lead me to a B and above avarage note, but I was proud anyway for getting that grade. Today I've done an exam on the theories of method in science (I've always hated metodlära as we say it in Swedish because the words are too hard to get and the facts are too easy when you read it) and I just hope to get an avarage garde on this one. Nothing more nothing less.
Today we are almost covered up in snow and the whole thing feels bad, snow of almost 10 cm in April? That is bad, I want spring now even if the winter have been awfull up here with snow the first day in the week, two cold days after that a really warm day in the middle of the week and then two days without snow and maybe even rain, then a day with very windy and chilly feeling, and then the whole thing started all over again.
And I always end up saying something like "I didn't move up north to gain the weather of my hometown Lidköping" and looking angry...hihi...I've also started talking to a coach who helps people gaining self confidence back and gaining a job after a long period of time without work and with depression, and that feels wonderful, this coach is really in tune and a good path-finder in the big djungle of getting any intern-work and the first foot out on the market of work. Soon I will also see a physisian to gain some stomach-muscles and get rid of my sore back and making the back more straight.
Over all I feel much more happier now and feels like the time offline that Glenn is superwising for me (keeping an eye over me so I don't fall off the good work and progress I am doing) I am finally starting to feel a bit more alive and normal in my day to day life. I so wish I could get a few hours a week to be online and doing things, but amazingly I don't feel that much preassure on getting online again soon. BUT I DO MISS MY INTERNET FRIENDS!
Love Leelene
..If I am depressed nobody else than myself can give me such a fantastic smile as I can see in the mirror every morning...it simply takes me to the moon!